Demons Await Poem by Calven Butch

Heavy weighted thoughts ran through my mind,
Capturing any moment I had with you,
The great times,
the good times,
even the bad times we had together.
Everything taken..
In an instant.
I wanted to scream out when I saw you with her,
I wanted to grab you again and tell you everything,
I wanted to hang on to you and show you I still love you,
But you just turn your back on me.
Told me I am useless and worthless,
I am not a thing but someone to play around with.

Those smiles we shared, shattered my eyes into nothing,
your laughter sliced my guts into water,
those loving eyes now break my mind,
your touches tainted my soul till it disappeared,
I am nothing when you are not near me,
I hate being useless but that's all I know.
your words meant a lot but now they hold nothing anymore.

No matter what you do to me,
I will never return to normal,
I will always regret,
hate,
yearn for things that can't come,
I hold no future,
I hold no memories,
I hold nothing now,
Everything seems to fly by without me,
Everyone having fun,
smiling,
laughing,
joking.
Why did you break me and then try and put the pieces back?
I want to know! I hate this! I f*cking wanted to die! but I stand on this cliff today,
Rain falling over myself as if they were my troubles.
As if they could take it and make it go away,
As if that would ever happen.
*Sighs* I do not wish to be in such a place but we all need to stand back on our feet and allow ourselves to recooperate with or without anyone's helps.

Be strong for yourself and those around you,
stand back up on stronger and more determined steps,
don't falter and slid away, keep your head high and stay ahead of the game~