Eating Me Away Inside. Poem by Ashley Morrison

I sit here and I cry, about the loneliness I feel.
Strange because I have many people whom love me, though that love does not seem real.
I've yet to experience happiness, depressed is what I know.
I've went completely crazy, went way beyond my low.
It's like I have to hit rock bottom, cause there will be no where else i can go but up.
something is eating away at me, I feel like Im going to errupt.
As much as I try to ignore it, it's getting worse and worse.
It's like my whole life I've had no luck, but been under a repelling curse.
My feelings are kept inside me, for they always get pushed aside.
Regardless of the days i need to vent, or to find someone whom I can confide.
The drugs are taking over me, the alchohol helps me cope.
I use to have so much faith, I use to have some hope.
Now i'm getting weak now, and feel partially dead inside.
I have yet to succeed in happiness, no matter how many times ive tried.
Got stuck in a relationship, with nothing but abuse.
Nothing i would say was right, he had a short fuse.
I finally over came it, and starting dating around.
There was one guy i came across, and I knew I had found.
Someone special, I see so much potential in.
But like everyone else, he pushes me away.
And took my potential happiness with him, the chance I had to succeed, and turned it all to grey.