Endless Thoughts Poem by Rachel bannink

Couldnt sleep tonight, i lay awake with my mind churning mostly about him. i cant escape these thoughts that are consuming my mind every single minute of everyday, but mostly he is in my heart.
i want to be with him i want to hold him in my arms such a dream not in the cards for me i think.
why cant i be with him? he is all i ever wanted, why do all the things we want most in this life seem so far away and never become our own.
to be with him would be like living a dream in a dream itself, but as if a dream is not reality, i can see how two dreams could be just a distant desire, the deepest longing of ones heart, a fading glimpse in eternity and when i wake its gone.
i find it so hard to keep him out of my mind when im awake, but if i some how manage to, when i sleep i will still dream of him, and the distant hope, a clenching and longing desire, that someday he could be mine. i lay awake in restless cries hoping one day he could be mine, and each day i go unloved a little more of me dies...