Falling Into Place Poem by Kellyn, A Grau

I walk alone on the path to recovery
I scream my lungs out to help this discovery
My eyes are so weak from the tears that have fallen
I feel like my body is constantly crawling
I'm not going to be the victim in this game
I thought that you understood I’m no where the same
I stick out in the crowed and my thoughts are much different
But I guess that makes my jaded heart indifferent
I’m a lost cause with no motivation to speak
I can’t help it if my soul cries out to seek
So watch me fall away from everything
And completely drown in a pool of nothing
So tell me what is just so wrong about me
Nothing makes sense to me anymore and I guess you’ll agree
Maybe if you open your eyes you’ll notice all my pain
It’s so hard for me to hold back my emotions and keep them contained
Forgive me if I seem out of it now
It’s just so hard for me to disavow
I’ve tried but the love just creeps back up in my heart
So now I’ll turn my back to you and depart
I’ll blind my self in this illusion that I really couldn’t care
But the truth is that all this sorrow I just can’t bare
I’ll break away and become a new soul
Maybe with time I’ll feel whole
I’m sick of this place and I want to get away
I’m sick of feeling like I have been betrayed
Watch the blood drip from my eyes
And cleanse the way I was all those times
I’m broken and fading quickly but you’ll never even see
The compassion that burning to be set free
I’ll show you my pain one way or another
Maybe I’ll get my thoughts to smother
They’ll lock me away and shut the door to my emotions
I’ll grow colder until someone breaks my devotion
I’m sorry for the blood that now stains your hands
You were the one with the knife and who stands
Over my pathetic state and you spat at my feet
How could you been so cruel to me and smile with my defeat
I’ll walk away and turn the other cheek
Because my voice is so bruised that I still cannot speak
So forgive me for breaking down with the passing days
I’ll be lost in a cold, hard, stone gaze