Fear Of Being Intimate...Again Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

I'd never thought as I aged,
I would feel 'more' romantic.
Maybe it is because I hadn't had that in years.
And my fear of being intimate...again,
Speeds quickly to a fade these days.
It is fun as well as frightening too.
I am no longer a child.
I am well into my 60's too!

Who knew it would be like this?
Living alone and happily single.
Then 'whoa'...
What IS this?
I am wishing to be intimate?
In a relationship?
I thought I had donated my feelings...
When I sent them packing and they went away?

I'd never thought as I aged,
I would feel 'more' romantic.
Maybe it is because I hadn't had that in years.
You know...
THAT?
Someone around just to nag?

Maybe I am going through a 'phase'...
And will soon wake up,
Before I find I have done something quite foolish.
Like commit...
To a delusion.