Rebecca Paul

(September,10 1994 / Pennsylvania, USA)

Forever I Am


Words cannot describe my hatred for you.
The seething burn that runs through me.
I can hardly believe what you've done;
What you said I caused.
It was never my fault.
I didn't want it to happen.
Didn't think it would end up like this.
My tears for you mean nothing.
My hands reaching for you, ignored.
My pleas calling for you, silenced.
Ruin me, moritfy me, lie to me.
Don't trust me.
I did it for you.
So you would know my hurt.
Maybe fix it.
Then you shunned me from your heart.
Line after line of scarlet emotion.
Drip, drop. It won't stop.
The pain hurts, but living hurts more.
Sorry, it's too hard. I can't do it.
Tell her I said good-bye.
Fuzzy reality sets in.
I don't want to die. Not now.
I look at the red-filled tub.
Rivers stream from my wounds.
Is this the answer? My end?
Or do I press on?
So I willed myself to live.
Will myself to let the pain go.
Forgive, I have.
Forget, I won't.
Forever I live. Forever I am.
Strong, a fortress, yet crumbling before you.
Tell me you love me, you always will.
Say you won't hurt me, you never meant to.
Hate me and choose him because it's best for me?
Do what you did because you care about me?
I'm a victim. Defenseless against his abuse.
Useless to you.
Forever I live. Forever I am.

Submitted: Friday, April 09, 2010
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  • Daniel Whoo (4/9/2010 6:46:00 PM)

    I'm in deep shock after reading this... This is one of those poems that is truely 1 in infinty. (Report) Reply

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