Forgiven? Poem by Leigh Ladd

I thought about you the other night,
It stopped me in my tracks,
Quite frankly, it gave me a little fright.

I was only doing my normal routine,
Getting everyone ready and tucked in their beds,
Picking up toys and making the room clean.

I picked up a toy and it hit me like a brick,
Glancing then staring at a stupid little toy,
This baseball made something in my already full head click.

I remembered what it was and I had to roll my eyes,
It was the feeling I had when I knew you were there watching,
Thinking back to if that was when you started with your lies.

I am not as mad as hell anymore and have let go of the hurt,
So thinking of you and that day makes me wonder if I have forgiven,
Forget it, I hope when you have figured out her lies that you get burnt.

I feel happy now even deep in my heart,
Because although I do not forgive you,
I have been absolved and have made a new start.