Here Comes Another Tear.... Poem by Angelique' Rockwell

The pain that I'm feeling
Will simply not go away
Starting when I was told
I was going back today

I had to leave you there
So small and unknowing
But looking at your eyes I knew
You were strong and growing

I can't stop the hurt
Of my breaking heart
Too many times burned
When will I get smart?

Now I've lost it all
I have nothing else to give
All my children, new baby, job and car
Thankful I have somewhere to live...

But see if I do have that
I can get the rest back too
It's just the not knowing
Making me wonder what to do

Stripped of all I care about
Even my pride's been tainted
I said there's nothing left
See the picture I've painted?

I just want to go home
This has been a really bad dream
They say it should be over soon
But what does that really mean?

The time has still been lost
They don't understand
I was straight - This tore me up
This year didn't go as planned

With my husband dead
My job is probably gone
I just gave birth in jail
And my ex stole my car and my phone

Looking - I have nothing
We'll probably lose the house
Where will I take my kids then?
I feel like an unwanted mouse

I did straighten up
I do deserve better than this
Of them all, there's very few people
Who realize I'm gone and miss

I'm so damn lonely
It'll be worse when I get out
So many stupid questions
Nothing I want to talk about

Quit feeling sorry Angelique'!
You can't fix it where you're at
Just get it done and over with
Then never think about that

But it'll never go away
The time I've lost in here
Then the dam breaks again
Here comes another tear.....

10/6/2007