Hidden Thoughts Poem by flooplesnap cookie

Is this really real
could i possibly heal
theres noway
they'd just turn away
no, not yet, not today
just keep going you'll be ok
ignore the screams
as hard as it seems
its up to me
to set myself free
i don't want anyone to evaluate me
this is the way i am
i don't expect you to understand
at points i think no one can
i have to save all that i am
i have survived
all that lays behind
and yet i remain kind
this life is MINE
all i see
is everyone fighting over me
continueing to over look me
i feel like a prize to be won
like they see me as a something rather than a someone
it would be easier to run
i feel as if everyone has lost sight
of what's right
now its just who won that day
and who is going to have the next say
i just want to say hide me
and wake me up with the ending
and i can just disregaurd it as a dream
i know the things i've seen
and the places i've been
I DON'T WANT TO SAY IT AGAIN
just let me run
and forget that it ever begun
just leave me alone
you see i've grown up all on my own
i know in some areas i'm dumb
point is i want to be done
just let me have some fun
its my fault i never spoke a word
about the things everyone sees as absurd
i just want to scream I'M DONE
but i know that would hurt more than just one
so i must hold on
but in my mind i've already left