Hot Lies Poem by Nika McGuin

Was the intimacy ever real
Or did you really just feed me lies
Which I ate up like hot fries

You can never do wrong
Something I've known about you all along
I've just ignored it, every time
I apologized for your mistakes

Our reality for me
Was as malleable as memory
Always orchestrated by you
Till this day I have no cognizance
Of how much is false
And how much is true

The uncertainty keeps me awake at night
Events and memories running through my mind
Like so many faded photographs
The more I attempt to sort them out
The more confused I become

Sometimes, I even miss you
And want to be friends again
But then I wonder, were we
Really ever friends

Or were all the things you told me fake
More lies, I surely ate up like hot cakes

No, I know the truth
I always have, but it's my heart
That seeks out denial
regardless, until you can be wrong
I think it's best I stay gone

After all, hot lies breed indigestion
And Internal disarray