I Don'T Wanna Be Your Conflict Poem by Maya Hershey

You are not him... he is not you...
I don't wanna be your conflict too...
The only conflict you deny is me..
Iam your conflict.. I dont wanna be...
I want you to be you...
Thats the only reason I still want you..
Arriving at day 5.. you are unaware..
Day 5 from 365 days of your life.. you don't care..
I like to say you did this to cope yourself now,
Your heart is washed away... it's burnt out..
I like to think of you as a sweet kiss,
a sweet, beautiful love you miss.
You don't fall from waiting,
I do..
You don't fall from wasting,
I do..
You still wait.. for the sunshine to cast her rays..
Oh... How I wanna be that sunshine..
You still wait.. for me to turn back and stay...
Oh... My pride has built a wall.. I'm Blind..
Why should I care? ... My heart is burning..
My world has Ran outside and it's turning..
drifting to the dark side of fury.. of oblivion..
of what is yet to come.. what is to carry on..
You're stupid.. You're such a fool!
For fighting for me.. bashing away the blue..
Just Because I trusted you more than you needed,
You threw our love away... thats why I bleeded
I hope you find your new future... in the man of you..
in the person I suppose I dont recognize too..
You didnt realize! that you are my silent sigh..
that I still put a grin when seeing that seat where I..
Where I first saw you... waiting patiently for a girl you thought of..
you wondered about.. you talked about.. and you dreamt of..
Guess I wasnt that good enough for you..
Guess Iam not what you wanted too..
I hope you the best.... From all my heart.. from all my conscious..
Guess.. Ahh... It's Okay... You will still be in me for... ever.
I will recall what we had to my children.. and how we were together.
We never made it to the last level.. why?
why did you have to do this and fly! ?
fly away like the pendulum swings!
I wonder! ... Give up everything..
So now.. I'm your conflict.. My existence is bothering you..
My bless... Is your infernal pain and suffer and doom..
I was confused about my feelings for you..
I said.. I want to go back and he'll fix everything too..
but love will not seek me in life again,
sing me a song to make me fall in love again.
Please don't ruin yourself.. Don't be blind..
Oh, It's hard to take another look inside..
Come... As you are..
Leave... But not like this..
Fly.. reach for a star..
Love.. But give bliss..
Remember.. I'm not your conflict baby..
I'm what you left behind.. sweety..
I am... That special secret song inside..
inside.. you.
This is our time.. out tear..
tell me when you want me..
It's my time.. my tear..
I will take a breathe to make sure of this..
I will be forgiving..
I will be.. Maya.
I will be less strict..
But.. I don't wanna be your conflict..