I'M Not Insane Poem by Jennifer Kay

My head is spinning around and around.
i dont know where to turn, or if i'll be found.
i dont know who i am, or if theres a cure,
i seem normal, only looking back in the mirror.
But i'm not okay, i'm not the same.
i know i'm not normal, but i'm not insane.
i cant be, i cant be.
i wont let myself believe.
i'm not insane, i'm not normal,
i'm not okay, i'm going to fall.
i'm falling, i'm failing, i'm nothing.
nothing to you, nothing to me, nothing.
i try to feel, try to feel anything at all.
and so comes the blade, it calls and it calls.
i cut and i slice and i open my skin
and i wince at the pain with a big wide grin.
i can feel the pain, i can taste my blood
sweet silence overcomes as i fall with a thud.
I'm on my knees, and tears fill my eyes
they stream down my cheeks, like liquid crystals of ice.
i dont know why i do this, i'm not okay.
i dont know why, but i'm not insane.