Ideally Unmissable Poem by Simply Ruby

I think i miss you.
You see, thinking and knowing are such incredibly complex things and while i definitely probably think i miss you. I can't exactly know for sure that it is you who i truly miss.

Is it you i miss?
You see my darling this is my dilemma right here. Do i miss you or do i miss the way you made me feel? Both blend too close together for me to figure out what the truth really is and so i write it down hopeful that the answer will reveal itself to me.

Is it working?
I'd say it is but in reality is not. Because here i am still pondering what is it that i miss the most. You? Your smile? Your laugh? Or is it all the sensations your skin against mine brought on? Do i miss the person or do i miss those four walls were time stood still?

Can it be both?
Ah yes of course it can! But it isn't and here's why that's an issue. It can be both if we were closer for me to miss more than your essence but we weren't. Were we? I barely know your last name which brings me to believe that what i miss is you making me forget all my pain. However, that part gets blurry because at times i miss your voice and your laugh and oh god your lips against mine. So for the life of me i cannot decipher what it is that i am missing.

Does it even matter?
It doesn't. Because you leave without a goodbye and without a trace. So truly I'm here just uselessly debating with myself whether i miss you, the person or those four walls where nothing but pleasure and happiness dwells.

Do i miss you?
I do. I absolutely do, but i also know that i don't miss you at all. What i do miss darling is those four walls where my pain is erased and i forget all my sorrow. Where there's light and time stands still. Where the sound of our voices drowns away my pain filled screams. Where the world outside ceases to exist and I'm left in a wonderful utopia of pleasure and bliss. I miss the escape. I miss being able to forget. I miss absolutely everything about that place and that includes you my dear

But i absolutely do not miss you because there was never enough of you for me to miss.