Idiosyncratic Girl Poem by Khethiwe Ndlovu

The thing is i fail to understand myself at times..
I sit and try to find words that will make my poems rhyme..
But that made me realise that I'm defying who Khat is all about.
I'm not comprehensive, or ordered like a Arithmetic sequence
So trying to put my words in a rythmatic manner is only putting me in a more understandable box for those who fail to explore the fathomage of their envisagement capacity.
So for me to expect someone to truly accept, understand and love for me would be utterly unfair when it's even hard for me to Register the complexity of my persona.
I get profusely excited when granted the opportunity to embrace my solitude, but hesitate when I'm required to sit with people in magnitudes.
Ambiguously I love getting to know new people (for that hour) , and give them a shoulder to cry on
Then go back into my room and captivate my thoughts and write poems like this.
I'm a very affectionate girl but I try avoid any physical and human contact as much as possible.
I'm yet to meet a GENTLEMAN who's willing to have a mental and emotional relationship instead of a sexual and physical relationship, until I'm ready to fall into the depths of this transoceanic thing called love.
I talk a lot but hardly ever speak what's on my mind.
I'm a private person but make it seem as if you know everything about me.
So to wrap things up and kinda tie them with a bow..
I'm an intellectual girl who becomes distraught at small talk. A girl longing for adventure..Too get lost on mirage of her thoughts.
Maverick. Yes yes I'm maverick, stunning to be exact, A Queen.
I am eccentric
idiosyncratic to be specific..
Idiosyncratic...