Is It Too Much Poem by Kevin Carney

It’s too much…
Trying to take it all in…
What’s the use to see it all through?
If only you knew what I am going through.
I tried to hold on to you.
Goodbye, the word I feared the most.
I know it hasn’t been said.
I see it coming all too soon.
Am I wrong to feel like this?
I close my eyes and want to feel your embrace.
I feel you want to just pull away.
I dream the night of your soft passionate kisses.
Only to be shown your cheek…
I think the day through with your name constantly on my mind.
I look at you and see the hope of being with you.
I look at you and see your back to me, walking away.
Such a contradiction this sounds like, I wish I only knew.
So cold I feel, only to know that I maybe lost in the end.
I wish just once you would take the time…
Too sit and read what I have to say.
You told me yourself, you and I are so complicated…
A relationship that defines no true meaning…
It was a time that was so bad…
And yet it was good in such a way.
You’ll never know the price I already paid.
You know in your heart I wouldn’t give up…
I fought for you any way I could.
Through the lies and dark nights…
Never caring what the consequence would bring…
I got to laugh, the more I think.
Maybe it was then I really fell in love with you…
Maybe I wasn’t fast enough to tell you what you mean to me.
Now I sit on top of this rickety fence…
Just barely keeping myself from falling over the edge…
Just waiting to see…