Living With Regrets Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

Living with regrets to select this,
As the only way life one should live.
With a haunting to be apologetic,
For misdeeds done one can not overcome.
Is a nightmare repeated,
For one unable to sleep.
One who once felt encouraged to see another,
Defamed and shamed to be left believed defeated.

Living with regrets like this repeated,
To remember misdeeds on one's mind that wont leave.
Is mentally lethal and self injecting.
And leaves an increasing feeble mind too weak,
To combat against physical ailments this doing feeds...
With an inability to release those tasks,
One committed to do in the past.
And wanting with wishes so much to ask,
For a forgiveness given when that opportunity arrives.

'Please forgive me for the lies I told.
And the wicked things done I did to blame on you.'

~Sure. Why not?
It's the season of forgiveness.
Forgive and forget and let happiness rule your life.~

'You don't remember me, do you? '

~Ummm no I can't say I do.~

'You mean to tell me I spent years,
Being tormented by what I did to you...
And you don't remember me? '

~No...I'm sorry. But I don't.~

'Sorry? You're SORRY?
I pace the floor tormented every night.
And you have the nerve to admit,
You do not remember me? '

~I know you might be going through a 'thing' right now,
HOWEVER...
If you are making a request,
To be tormented for the rest of your life...
Trust me,
I am thisclose to forgetting how joyful I was.
I am going to remember you for a very long time.~

'Whew! Thank you.
Mission complete.
I've been rejuvenated.
Do not let anyone tell you,
Inspiration isn't in your DNA.'