Lost To God Poem by Nathan Killeen

I look around, what do I see?
Planes of flames unknown to me.

Fire licking at my feet
Tells me that I’m surely beat.
This is when I turn to meet
The most unholy on his seat.
A mirror’s gaze my eyes did greet.

Then all did fade and I am lost.
I’d left from hell, but at what cost?

Am I all that is?
Hell to this was surely bliss.

Even time has ceased to be,
But this is all unknown to me.

Finally grace, a new place
Has entered to my mind’s embrace.
Did I create the whole of space?

But I’m alone, with stars that shone,
While sitting in my new made throne.
I’m lonely to my deepest bone.
My creation I must hone.
I’ll make a race to sound my moan.

Angels thusly I have made.
A price for this would soon be paid;
By my best friend I’ve been betrayed,

And for his sin, I’ve put him in
The fiery place I first had been.

Now for sadness I’ve made the Earth,
A place to fill with boundless birth…

Again I’ve been betrayed!
The images that I’d portrayed,
Have risen up and disobeyed.

I punished them for their sin,
Suffering be known to all the men.

But woe is me
Filled with pity.

I’ll make a son, my will be done,
And with me men will again be one,

And we’ll rise against he who banished me,
Who once was so friendly.
Then he’ll have to see
I’m lost to me.

Condemner and condemned.