Mixed Feelings Poem by Brooke Luchich

So you say that you really like me and secretly I think I really like you to,
One part of me says go for it, the other says don’t and I’m not sure what to do.
You’re nice and you always make me smile so I don’t know what’s wrong,
I guess it’s hard to believe I’ll be able to trust or love someone after so long.
In a way I think I’m scared that I’ll get hurt or even worse that I’ll hurt you,
What I’m meant to do about these feelings now I really don’t have a clue.
I’m torn between two answers and I have no idea how to pick one,
How can I when I’m not sure if I even want a relationship or just fun.
We’re both so different and it makes me believe that we would never last,
Just like so many other things that have happened to me in the past.
Sometimes I think I shouldn’t bother even though everyone thinks I should,
I’ve thought a lot about it but it’s like the bad things outweigh the good.
It’s so confusing and annoying not being in control of what I feel,
I can’t determine if I’m trying to feel something for you or if it’s all real.
I want to take a chance on us and see how it all works out in the end,
But at the same time I’m not sure I want you as anything more than a friend.