Mom Poem by Emma Good

Maybe I'm just missing you so much.
Maybe from time to time I find myself crumbling.
I need some time to repair again.
Nothing feels ok right now.
I am resentful and angry.
I wish I could call you.
I wish I could find what my son and I deserve.
I want to hear your words of wisdom.
I need to hear your guiding voice.
But I know I can't.
My heart breaks all over again.
I feel like today, I can't handle this life.
Such a bittersweet ride when I go through my memories.
Such a strong family bond, all gone too soon.
I do not know how I will be able to handle my fathers passing soon.
It's already tearing me up.
The thinning walls of my heart cannot take much more.
I miss you so much.
I miss your funny way of being.
Now I know how perfect you were.
I wish I could be half the woman you were.
God knows I'm trying.