My Friend, Pain Poem by Kaitlin Schmidt

One thing seems certain
Trust doesn't last long in each person.
It comes and goes depending on fit,
It is only used when there's a benefit
No time to waste, no true learning
Just trust me for now, forget the hurting
You know you will go through sooner or later,
But the selfish need is always created.

If you are like me, trust comes easily
No one’s looking out for you just yourself if you're lucky.
The pain you get at the very end
Is not what you seek but becomes your best friend.
A friend you hate but is always there
Always shows up when life seems fair
Your friend comes along
Putting you back on the path you strayed from.

And before you know it the path looks familiar,
Showing the signs you ignored earlier.
Reaching for your hand your friend holds tight
As you try to pull away with all of your might.
As your aching heart sinks
You realize again it is happening.

No, I can't go through this again you scream
With no one around you listening
To the terror in your voice, again you're drawn in
Your trust attaches to the new person
Who will cause you more pain.
So come along friend, here we go again

Next time maybe it will be different
And you're spirits will be lifted
But you truly doubt
Anyone can pull you out
Of this pattern.
The worst you don't want to fathom.