My Promise Poem by ash enslow

My mind is spinning like a vicious tornado
my heart feels empty like I'm not ok though
In spite of my thoughtless actions
I am circling within your attractions
A journey to my soul is the mission
I need to find myself and make a decision
Do I love him or is what I feel lust
looking in myself I hope to find trust in the things I do
So I wont hurt you
For all eight months I've had a ball
should I continue or stop it all?
That's a problem I have to solve
Or my mind and body will decay and dissolve
Its a quest for freedom I'm seeking to find
Do I really love him or am I out of my mind