Nothing Hurts Like Depression... Poem by Matthew Hunt

I wake from my slumber to the sound of death and sorrow as i do every night I lay there in bed thinking, hoping, praying there is some way out of this endless nightmare each night I try to find a way out but never do...Each day I plaster a fake smile on my face and tell you I'm fine or I'm just tired.. You wish I would tell you the truth of how I feel but I can't because you would leave me because you don't understand the meaning of pain, death, or loss... as I smile yet again another perfected fake smile you wonder what is happening to me...The truth is I am dying every day I try and find a way to wake from this nightmare but I can not because there is no way out of this cage because the only key is in the hands of depression you cry as i cut myself and let myself bleed every night I bang on this cage trying to get free but I can not as depression holds the key no medicine will change its mind no pill will make him the only way out is love, knowing someone cares but that would be a lie like everything else. I lay down again for another night and accept my faith as the only truth is I will never be free. I take one last breath as I free my self from this nightmare and whisper to you 'sorry....please forgive me...my love...I'm sorry...'I lay there bleeding and fading I give in and no longer fight knowing at last I found it...The one thing I've been searching for all these years...Peace....and tranquility to my soul...finally I can stop fighting....good bye...forever my lover... Forgive me please... good bye...