Oh Sister Of Mine Poem by The White Rabbit

I hate you right know
I can feel it too,
You think that I can hold up
More than I can chew

And I suppose it is my fault
For leading you that way
But let’s face the truth
I’ve hated you from the first day

You like to parade in your falsified hope
And hide behind your mind
But inside I still know
You are who you were when you would make me cry

You’re still that person on the inside
And I know I love you close,
But I hate just as much as I try to hope, but
For what I don’t know,
So don’t ask me again

I can be your friend but nothing else again,
If you’re hurt or need me and no one else is around,
Then maybe I can be that little sister
Who you would put down
And I know it still hurts you
To remember those times
But damn don’t you think I try?
To cage the pain I felt and hatred that lies
Just below the surface of my mind?
To cage this rage that fuels me, from day to day
Or the longing that pulls at my heart
Because I know
We will always be apart
I can forgive you all that I like
But I know that your little corner of my heart
Will still pitch and pinch in painful blacks and dying grays
The doubt that you gave me,
Is a life experience now.

So three cheers to you!
The almost perfectly, imperfect one
I can’t say that you got what you deserved
Cause I gave up on you
Being a person I could hurt

And yet I still do
I can see in your eyes;
You love so much
You cover all of your things up in lies

And I can feel tears burn and haze my eyes
Because you can hurt me

Oh sister of mine
And you seem to know just how
To make my heart twist at all the right curves

So I know that I can’t hurt you
(Even if you cry)
Because I know that you only regret
The actions you think I did not deserve
And yet I still stand here
Calling your name
Because I don’t want things to be that kind of the same
And I see you in me
And it kills me inside
Because you make me
Sometimes
Want to die