Once Again! ! Poem by Becky Ginn

Where do I go now it’s once again returned?
How do I know whose trust I’ve earned?
All through the night it swamps my mind.
The happy feelings being left behind.

I see nothing but darkness for months ahead.
Scared of the future – I’m filled with dread.

Hoping that this time will be better all round.
All the while knowing it’s a dream that I’ve found.
People around me day after day.
Picture perfect me, so there’s nothing they say.
Every night I regret the day’s events.
Never know exactly what it was you meant.
Nearly trusting but not quite there.
I just can’t bring myself to share.
Nightmares I have seem nothing to others.
Grown old in the footsteps of my famous mother.

Together you’re making jokes, I am just so weird.
Obviously this is just a phase that will clear.

My darkness around me has once again returned.
Each day worse than the last in turn.

This one of the ones where the first letter of every line spells out a sentence! ! !