'Ours' To Be Had Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

I am within this shell.
Behind a wall I've erected,
To protect myself.
Trusting others is out of the question.
I have done that not to do again.
Well...
Not until 'my' preferences are met,
And scrutinized with a testing.

Oh yes.
When there is happiness,
And a lifetime togetherness involved...
With nakedeness?
There will be scrutiny.
I've learned too many lessons.

It only takes one experience,
To change one's mind.
It only takes one experience,
For one to redefine with certainty...
One's wants from a need.
And I have found,
The needing of nonsense in my life...
Is not what I want.

I am within this shell.
Behind a wall I've erected,
To protect myself.
Trusting others is out of the question.
I have done that not to do again.
Not until 'my' preferences are met.
And scrutinized with a testing.

And if the chemistry matches,
Unquestioned satisfaction is 'ours' to be had.
To age like a fine wine should.
With a cork ready to pop to please when needed.