Painfully Loving, Poem by Shaiann yarbrough Perkins

Painfully so painful anger sneaks upon you,
Love speaks softly by its self and is demonstrated abusively toward materialistic nothing's, abandoning the genuine definition Love is now made a man's emotion. A stool founded by a bold  manipulative, vindictive substitution of a faint care. If Love could be described in the up most as God's utensil L.O.V.E is a full understated description. And because it's not use able but only undescribable characteristic, with stern instruction •form your mind like his. ° and form your walk, talk, and heart like this. Know that all things in Christ are possible. Cherish the armor given by our shield never being a weapon. He says  'you will harvest where you sow'   Any seed can be planted and any harvest will come but not every seed has the right nutrients to plant and expect harvest to look like sunshine on a cloudy day. Thank you is the key essential in succeeding in any area. Pain will disturb the comfort zone that is effectively wrong,   prayer  heals the wounds.. while repenting will clean the soul. But loving, trusting, believing, and needing God. That's all the seed that ever harvested had, when they made it to eternity all the pain from hunger and bruises and isolation the pain from the world never mattered, and will never change, it will be left and used again for him to burden others when hunger is to much for them and all he has is one bite that will fill you up, painfully loving you accept the piece of food.  Sometimes the last of, only one or most important one someone has to offer so generously will be the only one you can't remember because the best came before the worst.. but  worst (Jesus being killed) always has and will come before the (best) Resurrection, coming back to save those in need. Because hunger had you distracted everything looked good. Anything that took patience was looked over instead of understanding the beautiful filling, the  energetic draining home cooked and well put together meal, hunger is the excuse that is easier to accept and hard to find when problems swarm your life. Painfully Loving continuing to the walk given to you, gaining strength and the knowledge of having sore feet. Painfully Loving the opposite decision where standing still, straight up with no movement began as a soothing comfort but with no movement things began to stop the functions having no core being purposeless, loosing the voice everyone is far and trouble is near.So the pain in loving and loving while pain is temporarily painful, you chose the harvest, you chose to trust the care of the spontaneous availability and feeling noticed. Painfully Loving other flesh, now I see!
It is pain ful to love and say I love u everyday knowing that because I am not breakable nor am I burnable, but to you I am diamonds are forever... making faces , and circles being the best to you as diamond that u have broken down into utensils. The fatal attraction has u clinging to life. Thinking that it's a want with no need to attempt to notice... that unnoticeably your burning your soul into everyone's piece.. even though I would love having that Diamond ring it's not worth the pain it brings, Loving someone who will forever mistake love is Painfully Loving.

I never knew how painful serenity was until I labeled you.
Dear God, Grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change,
And the courage to change the things that I can.With wisdom to know the difference.) & Strength to handle the pain from walking away..