War In Me. Poem by Shaiann yarbrough Perkins

I hear the creaking in this house.


But I don't think it hears me. Ohhhh, my cry is so loud so deep how can silence be the only thing around me. Distance, pain, lust, and shame so strong and potent like poison eliminating blood so fast taking a chance at life out of every breath .. But yet threw the disaster the strongest thing flowing threw never in vein is 'LOVE' and yet still understated by source causing the silent torturous dehydrated vein to suffocate coming close to a shadowed deteriorated invisible shame. By the spirit gifted is she but in flesh cursed so viciously her cry is vindictively fighting something unseen 'POWERFUL' and well oriented, Quiet and undefeated AUTHORITY commands that I silence my scream and remember the time that God has invested in me, building me, purposing my foundation.. visually being my sight, but allowing me to guide by foot assuming my responsibly knowing the unseen, trusting the direction in which the spirit will lead me. This feeling is so deep in me attempting to avoid it leaves me in devastation and mental lack of motivation will swarm me like honey attracts the bee.. Just as useless as a heart with no beat, suddenly functions that once needed have lost the source of energy., everything mentioned is visually unseen but spiritually the strength of her every weakness and need.. The knowledge of God trusting her is satisfying.. consciously burdened by the loud silent disruptive scream, having no other want than to continue the mission while waiting on the war to be defeated by the mute in me. Mission after mission, , carrying on with hunger but feeling lack of starvation, BROKEN but fixable, Blurred vision misinterpreted as a blind individual, still very well capable, honest but clearly I have no sound level. Because a serious seeker knows that at the voice of God cannot be out spoken. Those who hear won't stand a chance. But if you HEARD me you will understand. That receiving the GLORY required enduring a great SUFFERING. Loved by few built on action and hated by many who see what my ship will soon carry. Captain your description, with out the waves that u predict is a useless title.. The wood wheel was created by someone who was created by someone You needed someone to create u right...Captain? he created the definition with COMMAND instruction, control is not your obligation, don't lift yourself higher than your ranking. Relationship is a image of you and your spirit, carry your hatefulness and continue waiting.. Patiently unknown that your waiting on the 3 pack deceiver of your destiny. Kill the heart so kept it wont, steal the mind your glory is left behind.. destroy so that its an obvious your mine. Manipulating flesh you are now deadly in the path.


Unseen because blind is now your name.. Not secretly but boldly im in a invisible war of the battle you can't win authority does not ask is simply demands
'You can't have my family'


'You can't have my victory'


This means war.