Pause Poem by Danny Banks

I don't want to be your knight in shining armor
I don't want to be your ship safely ashore
All I really hoped for was that you would walk beside me
But baby, I'm not sure that I can do this anymore

I don't just want to be 'big brother'
Yes,  I'd like to be all that but more
Baby I want to also be your lover
I want to be the One that's coming through your door

I'd like to be a daddy to your children
More than a grownup playmate while they swim
And hold their mommy's hand while they are growing
Be the one that she can lean on thick or thin

Once we talked with honesty and longing
When you said, 'pick me' I really did
We laughed and made some future plans for joining
I thought that was the space we both were in

But then I found myself holding too tightly
Clenched that I was sure to lose my grip
And if I moved, even ever so slightly 
That's when I felt the dream begin to slip 

Should you ever want to bring your whole self to me
If 'how 'bout a life? ' becomes the question asked again
Let's live together joyous, free and rightly
As lovers, soulmates, twins and best friends

But I'd really rather not be your fall back plan
I want to spring forward with you instead 
Don't wish to be a flip side to another man
Aching with a broken heart and head

I don't want to be your knight in shining armor
I don't want to be your ship safely ashore
All I really hoped for was that you would walk beside me
Take my hand and somehow guide me
On a path we both would share
But for now baby, I'm not sure that I can do this anymore