Question Of Life Poem by Maria Sudibyo

Have you ever thought?
That we often chase for the right thing
But yet we do a different one in the end
That when finally we get what we want
We regret that we don't have time left to enjoy
Wasting our life for something that actually not too important

And it beats and beats in your dream
And it hits and hits in your scream

Have you ever thought?
That even we planned something carefully
It is not happened like we want to be
That when we thought we live relative peacefully
And wish that it won't change for a while
Someone is waiting tomorrow to shatter your hope

And it runs and runs in your mind
And it rushes and rushes in your wind

Have you ever thought?
That instead sleep soundly like a good child
You devoted yourself to stay awake and exhaust yourself
That you cage your heart from being basked in love
And keep fake smile adorning your face
Doesn't trust anyone including yourself to get attached and become closer

And it swirls and swirls in your heart
And it whirls ands whirls in your doubt

Have you ever thought?
That you have reached the point of boredom
But can not find anything sparks and interesting enough to quench your hunger
That you need to be understood
But feeling exposed and vulnerable when someone could catch your disturbance
You can't stand to not lose yourself in self anger

And it burns and burns in your patch
And it blinds and blinds your path

Have you ever thought?
That you stuck in the place that you don't desire
Helplessly need to find a way to escape
That when you fear to be left behind
It grows even bigger and darker
Makes you forget about what you own in your hand

And it shakes and shakes your faith
And it rakes and rakes in your wound

Have you ever thought?
That when you try to see what the future stores
You only reach less than some spider web and empty air
That you wake up in the morning and pray for strength and a better luck today
But when it turns all wrong again
You must learn to compromise with regret and disappointment

And it flows and flows in your blood
And it blows and blows in your gut