Ran Out Of Time To Say! Poem by Emma Jane Rae

I wish i'd had the chance,
to say what i wanted to say,
but all those feelings of love i had for you,
again you took away,
i miss those goodnight kisses, when you said,
'mummy never leave you,
and you never leave mummy'
but i never knew,
my mummy was a junkie,
you've given me more wounds,
than bullets from a gun,
why didnt you sit me down?
and explain to me what you had done?
why cant you tell me why you lied?
i feel part of me is missing,
deep down inside!
i can never forgive you and i'll never forget,
why didnt you tell him to get lost? ,
when you first met,
i watch days come,
and i watch days go,
and i wonder will i ever know?
i want answers and the truth,
i knew you were cheating,
i had the proof!
you promised me you would never leave!
the thought of you gone,
makes me struggle to breathe,
you have no guilt,
you had no shame,
wont be long till you do it again,
why do you blame me?
why was i the one who had to see?
if you want someone to blame,
you should look a little closer to home!
why did you never take the time?
to read my poems?
i'm not sure about it,
but one things for certain!
you've caused me pain,
and inside im hurting!