Reality Check Poem by Mae Summerville

I wonder am I ready?
As I scream it out loud
I get up to look in the mirror
I see the reason im so unsteady

The truth is I already knew
My reflection thats looking back at me
I, me, who ever I am now
Tells me all my debts are due

Its true, its something you just know
When the screaming is coming from the depths of your soul
Screaming so loud, but only I can hear
I can see the light, that flicker, the shimmering glow

Do I listen or do I run away?
Like a scared little girl with no courage?
As I've always been and always done
Do I go or do I stay?

I dont get to decide my fate
Its not a choice I get
Its already written in the book
Is this a warning before its too late?

I only get to make one choice
The choice to believe or not
Do I leave the mirror coz I dont like what I see?
Or do I listen to my inner voice?

I know I have all the faith in Him
Do I have enough faith in myself?
I feel all my strength draining from me
The shimmering light seems to be growing dim