Replacement Poem by Maureen Adair

What is this choking feeling
so dark and menacing filling my entire being.

An ache a longing within my soul
a chaos, a destruction, I am losing my self control.

Anger, hatred, sadness?
Whatever happened to joy and gladness?

I begin to look around with hatred and contempt obscuring my vision
My mind fills with a coldness, a indecision.

Control, coolness, calculation, manipulation
No longer mischief, love, laughter, flirtation.

Passionate joyous woman once been
replaced by a lifeless cruel twin?