Rogue Waters Poem by James Darwin Smith II

I once cried rogue waves
Those of bitterness and disdain
Life sacrificial
The war of anti-matter
Collateral famine
Moving backwards
Only to crash back
Bewildered self
Preserving it within
Taking all the pain


Never did I want to share
The agony of self-defeat
These emotions rocked
Upon white capped frustration
That for was the creation
Of mine and mine alone


To know to be heard
Not a word
Solemn sacrifice
Taking everything in
But what could other see?
When I disappeared within myself


Left myself behind
One too many times
The beast took over
Of any hope of beauty
And life became nothing
But a disillusion
An illusion of what
Was supposed to come


Today, I have made my strides
Yet, it gets too hard at times
But I guess it is all for a lesson
Of whom I am as a whole
And who I am supposed to be tomorrow
If that even makes any sense


Stood still foram
No matter how hard it gets
These currents will always stay strong
Even if they have to do it all alone
.

Hear my battle cries
Crashing inward tides
Crying rogue waves of joy
.

Indeed, this soul is my truest form
Can you see it?
I surely hope so
Because the flesh is a mirage
After all
.

Here I am,
Still crying rogue waves of joy


No matter how hard things will be
I will always keep exploring


All I am after all
Is a rogue ocean
Full of love


Can you see where I am going?
Because I sure cannot see where I will go


Oh well
Just going with the flow


With these tears of joy all alone