There's not a day that goes by that I don't hear your name in words that don't even sound close. I know this book is closing but, you didn't even finish reading the poetry I wrote...for you, it's true, it's hard letting go. Especially when you'd finally found the one that eases your soul. And I promise i'll try not to be heavy handed when I pour. I know I've been here before. I know for me you wanted more but, all I wanted to know was that this door would remain closed instead of being filled with this wistful hope. This hope that you left me with... I know I need to let go. I can feel this rope called love cutting into my skin but, I still feel the need to hold on. I know you see me struggling, I know you hear me crying, I know you still feel love within but, I also feel you enjoy seeing me dying.
I know I need to let go, I guess I'm destroying myself by choice at least, this is what I've heard a thousand times before. I wonder if they know I've watched the sun come up every morning for the past couple of months. I wonder if they know what it's like to have insomnia almost all of your life. I wonder if your friends know not too long ago you was here telling me all of your dreams and confessing all of your fears, I wonder if she knows... I didn't know anything. I didn't know this man I called my best friend would tear every wall down brick by brick just to leave me standing here in this ruin. I didn't know this man I loved would leave me filled with so much hate but, not towards him... sometimes I'm afraid this love I have will never end. As much as I wish, as much as I want to, as much as I try, I can not let this go. I can't even throw out your things because the nostalgic feeling reminds me that there actually was a time where I smiled without reason, a time I can say I was truly happy. They remind me of all the times I went to sleep and woke up to your face, they remind me that you actually was here and that I'm not insane.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
this really makes me feel such sadness, your pain resonates