Silent Confession...........(My Bag Of Sins.....) ...... Poem by Sebastine Humaemo

Was walking, with silent thoughts in my mind
am sure we both gonna have a hot talk again
for all the questions He gonna fire at me
am going to stand without answers for sure
Though most times I used to curse and fight with Him
I still go insearch for Him when I feel insecure
because, He is the only one, Who can forget and forgive
for all the mischiefs and sins for others I give

While stepping into His house, I felt its quite and calm
wind, trees and birds all freezed for a minute
as if He paused them all for a while, cos of our meet
when I walked through the chairs on my sides
unseen Angels shared their giggling laughs
for the silent comments about me, few pass


Down the cross I stood quite and dumb
while at the sides stood my Heavenly Father and Mum
with tears I raised my eyes looking at His wounded feet
for which my hidden conscious said, its all for your sake
when I managed to look straight in His eyes
He smiled at me and said, welcome back again
the moment my lips tried to say, sorry for all my sins
I heard Him saying don't cry, just dropp your bag of sins

Tears rolling down I asked, why don't You get down the cross
dosn't it pains? ....with a smile He replied
I too... like to be down....but not until my Father says
turning to my Father I asked, why such a punishment for Him
smiling He said, because He can bear the pain for all your sins, but you cant
with burdened heart I stood calm feeling guilty for my sins
and the Devil standing outside smiled cos he always wins


Suddenly felt my Heavenly Mother Mary, hugging me from behind
with tears she said, miss you son, you come just once a while
turning around I asked Her, do You love me still
with tears she said, yes I always do.... just dropp your bag of sins
while undoing the heavy bag of sins tied on my back
Father Joseph came close with smile to help me out

With head's down and no words to say, I started walking towards the door
soon Mother Mary came running towards me and asked...can I dropp you at the door
holding Her fingers, when I started walking towards the gate
I could sense my Mother crying all the way
steping out the church, I turned around and saw Her tears filled eyes
with a smile she said, I became good enough
as she felt my bags of sins weightless than before

Tears rolling down I thought myself
in making me smile, even my Heavenly Mother lies
with love She patted my head saying, come back soon will be waiting for you
till then be fine and safe wherever you move
kissing Her plam, I departed saying will love you for ever
for which Her face bloomed like a dew drops filled flower

When I reached the lonely road
the gate behind me closed and I felt pure and new
for a second I closed my eyes and felt sorry again for my sins
suddenly I jolted up feeling someone holding my palm again
opening my eyes I saw its the same devil, who always wins again and again....