The Darkest Night Poem by Paul M. Mayer

I can’t explain the way I felt when you were by my side
Those times we spent together then our souls they did collide
I also can’t put into words the emptiness inside
‘cause when you left me here alone a part of me did die
I tried to let go like they said, but couldn’t leave you long
For without your hand in mine I know that life is truly wrong
Your arms around my neck as I felt our lips embrace
Sinking in each other as I pictured your sweet face
You would take me by the hand and not lead me astray
You always seemed to think the things and have the words to say
We were so close but now so far I really can’t believe
Those thoughts of you keep flowing at the moment they’re conceived
I hold you closer every night as tightly as before,
Only knowing we will hold each other nevermore
You took my heart and cradled it, stroking it with care
And now without your loving kiss life it feels so bare
Picturing our hearts and souls together we should be
But through the years and past the tears no more you will want me
Water flowing down my cheeks and blood down from my wrists
From the cuts I’ve made across my arms and cheeks you kissed
Every day I look and say “What happened to us two”
I wrap my arms around myself pretending it is you
I also clasp your hand in mine but realize they’re the same
For holding my own hand I know won’t send this pain away
From the corner of my eye I still can see your face
But when I quickly turn around someone else is in your place
I could have let you go before and still I could decide
But I will not because in you my heart it still resides