The Fear Eternal Poem by Dallas Carter

The fear
It chokes me half to death sometimes.
I try to hide it
To force it deep down within myself.
I go about with what I am doing,
A nonchalant expression on my face.
But just below the surface it boils.
I tried to end it, tried to kill it,
But it's still there, lurking just past my eyes.
The house in which so much pain resided
Is now but a fleeting memory.
I have moved on from where I was,
But even rebirth has its flaws.
This fear will follow my soul for eternity,
Rising from my core, bubbling in my throat.
It makes it hard to breathe
But I refuse to let it show.
Even when I am alone I wear a mask,
A mask of bravery.
If I break this act the fear will win.
And so I force it down,
I drown it out and keep going.
Maybe one day I may find peace.
A day in which I am not at war within myself
Fighting the battles I wish to have forgotten.
Maybe one day...