The Letter Not Sent Poem by Brendan M. Rumney

Well here are the words I write again. It seems that this is the only thing I do now. In fact, even you begged of this when we were together. Funny thing is though, you're gone. But it's not really that funny, actually it is kind of like kicking me in the ribs everytime I put these scratches on to paper. But you will never see this anyways so what do you care? Heck, that is what you told me, that I never cared... Truth be told, I cared for you every moment we were together and even now when you're gone. You know that saying 'Forever and Always'. Ain't that true now. I meant it everytime I said it. Learning to live without you is fine just based on that fact because I learned you were not who I thought you were. You were selfish. So selfish that I gave up everything for you and you wanted more for yourself. I warned you of him. You said 'Oh we are just friends' and I let you go on your way, but deep down I know you had different intentions. But I cared so much, I dulled it in my mind that I just became mute to everything... And that is when depression set in. It was the hardest thing in my life to deal with. I tried to tell you but you played it off as I was a mad man. Deep down I was crying for help, but you were gone. You could of tried but you were so selfish on how you felt that I didn't matter anymore. And I am sorry that I became short and tempered with you but I was afraid to let you in because I was unsure how you would react. And I am not hurt by what happened. I am hurt by who you've become. You have turned into a narcissistic, shallow, inconsiderate human being. So much as to send me a hate text to just tear me down. I know I hurt you and I am sorry. But never once was my intention to ever bring you down or make you feel less. I never wanted you to feel pain. I wanted to take your pain and let me deal with it. So, by seeing the way you are, I am thankful it is over. I just feel sadden by who you become. And you will never hear these words because frankly you don't deserve to.