The Truth Part 1 Poem by Jerad Castaneda

What took you so long my love, I've been waiting for you to return to me.
I've been longing for you, the nights are cold, dark and lonely, with out you there next to me.
Never has anyone meant so much to me. I've learned a lesson in the time apart for you
I've learned that I need you more then you need me. you said you where always mine that you fell in love with me the first time you saw me it was the same for me as well.
Never did I think that it was possibility for you to hold me again, the way you used to
Never did I believe that you would call your arms my home again I hope you never said they never were
Never did I think I would see your smile or feel your touch
I hated the days that would go by with out you in them I still do.
I hate the way I made you cry.
I hate that my anger pushed the only one I cared about away.
I have to stand now and face my choices and hope that I can make things better.
Better for you, better for me, better in all the ways I couldn't before
Yes I've made a change a Change for myself a change for the better
I realized so much in so little time and lost so much more
grew up, making something out of myself
opened my eyes to the truth of what I was becoming and how it made things difficult
for me to be true to myself and who I really I am.
You don't have to tell me I've been a fool or that I was wrong
I already know.
I was afraid that I would never see you again.......
a fear so consuming that when I thought about you I broke down
and wanted you next to me...
I never want to feel alone again I never want to hurt you
I never want you to leave me again I can't stand it when you go
but when you leave know that my arms will always be yours