The Wake Of Pain Poem by montana hohensee

pain of loss...
pain of defeat...
pain of a lost one...
to the clenches of death and beyond
pain from everything
pain from self
pain from people
anger beyond the deepness of the heart
spiraling into oblivion out of control
and running into nothing
and running into self defeat
and running into a solid wall of all the mental stress linking to the deepest memories
linking to the deepest fears upon own self
when the sub-conscious turns around
when the sub-conscious betrays its own mind from it was created
stressing upon your shoulders of guilt and agony
put death behind you
only motivation from self loss
only motivation from fear upon loss
losing all you made
losing all you helped make
killing the thoughtfulness
turning man on man
killing yourself through your own fears
crumbling on the floor
crumbling on what was you
crumbling the very bricks you made
the very bricks you put up
the wall of integrity crumbles at the own wake of your thoughts
crumbles down
down
down
to the darkest corner in your mind to where
the fear has grown
the walls collapse
all from 1 pain
1 pain brings you down
1 pain crumbles the walls of which you built
caused by your own fear caused by yourself
you deny the loss
you deny the pain
wishing it will go away
but that has failed to
but you ran out of material to build the wall again
and now
forever more
it is lost
you now start to push the pain out
but in helpless act
nothing can save you except the grace of others
and the mercy of your soul
mercy from others
to forgive you for the deeds you have done
to forgive you for the pain you caused
but grace will not solve the whole puzzle
but grace will not solve everything that went wrong
but grace will not repair that wall
that you destroyed
that your own very mind crumbled to ashes
and now
its coming back
in the wake of your pain
caused the ocean of your life to stur others
now rippling threw you
like you have never felt
rippling threw you in wake of your very own ashes
in your mind the puzzle is incomplete
and remains incomplete
like the fallen wall
that kept you from killing your own mind
you crumble more
more
more
mercy will never come for you now
mercy will never save you
for what you have done to it is un forgivable
for what you have done to the shore of society
and the grace left
and came back with anger
came back with death
now....
nothing will save you.....
nothing
the walls have fallen
your mind..
crumbled from the strong wake you created
and intensified the pain of what happened
now you are gone
now death has gotten you
now your dead............