These Choices Poem by Katty Briones

My head hurts from all these memories
Of all these things said
About my choices and how they suck
I just dont see a reason to care
And i just dont want to get better
But he can change, as easy as 1 2 3
And hes a different person
Not the man i knew when i met him
But someone shinier and happy
Why cant i be happy?
Why do i keep the rust and bad thoughts?
She says if i wanted to i could stay sick
But shes not going to reward her child
If she has a mental illness
She wont accept a broken child in this house
She's just going to take and take and take
Untill im good enough for her