To Be Honest Poem by Abhinit Chute (abz)

In the train, quite sleepy,
But peeping through the window!
Watching the motion of the nature pass by..
But I feel so stupid, 'cause I have borne
Silly thoughts And I Won't
Answer if you ask me why?

I'm a weak guy! BullShit!
And that's why I can't fight It!
To kill these heap of thoughts for my sake..
This pen isn't workin'
So loud at my face just laughin'
Can't write 'cause vibrations make it shake!

I wondered every time,
why this life of mine
Just can't be kind!
I blame the very person I come across..
But they're my heart and my mind
Who just can't combine
Not only once, but every time..
They're their own boss!

And it's me who is locked up!
Me who is held up!
Both of you, just shut up!
If I disobey just one, I'm out of my destiny..
Every hour is the same..
And I take up the blame..
Got legs so long, but I feel lame!
Feelings make me my own worst enemy!

My mind: 'Study guy, you got aims! '
My Heart: 'Chat with her and play games! '
Victory whose? It's me who claims!
But it's both at once 'cause I'm broken right at my throat!
Suddenly I keep the pen aside
to know it's five twenty five,
Knowing I'm reaching, I sigh!
But I pick the pen again I gotta end it right I can't jump out of the boat!

Thoughts make my World so fearful
My eyes so tearful..
For every time I trynna be cool,
I'm Subjected to more 'Centimeters Of Hg'
I'm alive because of medicine..
On the notice board for indiscipline..
Can't believe How foolish I've been!
To be Honest, I know I'll make it through, just let it be!