Trapped Poem by Ben Duncan

trapped inside my head
I can see myself breaking down; crying, sobbing,
wishing to be consoled
I can see myself screaming; tearing the world apart
wishing to be noticed
I can see my dreams, my wishes floating all about
Impossible to fulfill
when i look in my mirror, I see only silence
my eyes red, full of tears that will never fall
my mouth dry and cracked, mouthing the words that will never come

I try to cry, my eyes only water
I try to talk, my lips only whisper
unable to express the pain burning within,
the darkness
the numbness
and the death

I want to ask for help
I always falter
I want to express how bad things are
as the words leave my mouth, they sound a joke, unable to express the pain
unable to express an ounce of how I feel
sounding only pathetic
I want to do something, ANYTHING
but I lack the energy to get up
I don't know how tp get up
I don't know how to stop surviving
how to stop my life

in the end, this you never see
in the end what you see is what I'm forced to show you
my happy, normal life trapped inside my head