Trying To Be Brave Poem by Angelique' Rockwell

I'm aware I said I wouldn't do it again
But of course I knew I probably would
I slept with the man with the great hugs
I did it, I think, because I wanted to and could

I know nothing will ever come from it
But it seems he really pays attention
When I need it and am feeling alone
It's very comforting, and sweet, not to mention

Afterwards he gets extremely quiet
I'm curious as to what it is he's thinking
I just can't help myself but to hug him
Then he leaves and again I start sinking

Nothing fills the lonely emptiness
Definately not these one night things
But my hugger and my lover help alot
And with them there are no strings

I know my hugger cares for me at little
Now my lover I can't yet say that for
But I know whenever we part ways
I want to go running back for more

My life is really quite busy right now
Between my kids and my job
There isn't time for a relationship
But alone, by myself, I began to sob

Can I really live life alone by myself?
That is something I need to find out
I think I need the personal contact also
'Cause I know that's what it's all about

Holding someone and being held
This is what I really, truly crave
Is there someone out there like that?
If not I'll, alone, try to be brave

09/07/2005