Untitled Depression Poem by Jessica Vera

I can't sleep. My fear of you just haunts my dreams.
I can't live just knowing somewhere on earth you still exist.
I can't be calm just knowing that any day you will come.
I can not run cause no matter what I will be harmed.
I should stay strong for whenever that day comes.
I will stand up and never let you break my heart.
I will not cry. I only wish that you will die.
I'll tuck in bed and pretend that you are dead.
I'll sleep in peace just wishing you didn't exist.
I will smile even if it takes me a million miles.
I will succeed cause you will never be my need.