While I Die Poem by Nephthys Of Night

I hope you know
That while i die
Im thinking of you
That your holding me in your arms
Murmuring 'its all right darling'
Your breath tickles my ear
I think your there
But when i turn around
Your no where to be seen
You never were there for me
I wanted to run to you
But i held my self in my own imprisonment
I wanted to tell you all my horrors
I was scared what you would think
Would you look at me like i was crazy?
I cant stand for you to see the real me
But you've seen more of me
Than any other guy
With out you it's like someone
Took down the sun
I can't tell what im doing
I can't stop but im screaming to
I think of you & how i fell in love
How i never thought it was real
then you loved me back
In the end you broke my heart
It might have been you
That kept me from jumping off this cliff
But know you've pushed me to the edge
You left me there
And i hope you know
That im staring down it happily
Because of you
I want to stop feeling this way
To stop the black hole in my stomach
I dont think any one noticed
I think im ganna do it
Maybe you know
But maybe u dont think i will
No one will notice
I will be gone
You won't either
You said you would alwas
Remember me
But know your not talking to me
It makes me smile knowing
That maybe...
Just maybe you will think
That it was your fault i died
And maybe u will feel bad
You didnt notice i was gone...