Whole Poem by ESPN CHICK

Feels like I'm dying inside over again
Can't help the fact that my soul is screaming out loud
I know I will never be whole
So why am I still trying

Why am I trying to turn this pain into happiness
Why am I trying to make my heart unbruised
Guess I am that desperate to be whole

Broken all over
How can I pick up the pieces
Its almost impossible to do
What must I do to become whole

So many thoughts of suicide run through my mind
All the pain still piled up inside
Tears still shed every now and then

It must be a hard knock life
Cause every time I turn around I swear my life always comes crashing down
Hard to close my eyes at night afraid of what the next day will bring
But I'm hoping that one day I will become whole and I won't have thoughts of suicide or all the pain piled up inside

Maybe I wouldn't even shed tears but once so often
Just hoping one day somehow I will finally be the person I want to be
Maybe I will become whole and not so broken or bruised

March 9,2008