Who I Am Poem by ESPN CHICK

On the inside I'm torn apart
Broken into pieces
That's who I am

That's who I've always been
But everyone just looks right through
Everyone sees through these teary eyes
And all those broken fake smiles that I wear

They see through all the lies
Can't they tell that I'm living a lie
I guess they are just blind

This is who I am
Forever and always I will be filled with pain
I will be broken all over inside and out
And I'm losing all hope

Because I know that I will never be whole
And being broken and in pain is just who I am
I was born with pain and I will die with pain

That's who I am
And I hate who I am
But I have to accept the facts
Although that's really hard to do

I'm all tangled up with fear
Tangled up in all my thoughts
I've got so many and I can't rid them

I got so many of him and I've tried to throw them away
But I can't force myself to rid them
I've known him for too long and he still is a part of my heart
That's who I am I can't rid anything or anyone from my heart and soul

After all he meant so much to me
I just wish he would talk to me again
I miss those words

But that's who he is now
I hate it so bad but I can't tell him
My heart just won't let me and I don't know why
I know I've got to move on someday somehow I will move on

But this is who I am
I'm lost in my thoughts of him
In the thoughts of suicide

This is who I am
I'm hopeless, broken all over
I'm drowning in my pain
And trying to hide the tears

June 5,2008

I know not good..but who cares...I couldn't sleep so I had to write