Why Is It? Poem by Lizzie Resendiz

why is it, that i can be totally sad
uberly furious, extremly mad
but as soon as i see you
i just dont know what to say, what to do?
i grow happy
yes this is sappy
but its all true
i f***ing love you
but please explain
all this confusion and pain
please let me know
why when you go,
i feel lost and alone
all my happiness gone
why is it that upon you i depend
is it bc my heart u still need to mend
is it faith, in a true
that you are my eternal boo
or perhaps a linger of feelings
bc my heart servived the killings
just please answer
is this a cancer
a horrible infection
a non existant connection
i do not know
so plz just nevr go
bc when you leave
its hard to breathe
i still want to know
where those feelings go
and why is it that no matter what
with you i cant be blunt
i cant say all i need
yet i do not bleed
why is it that with you i am ok
i do not know just please forever stay
bc when you leave
i cannot breathe
i cry and cry
pray to die
a sec. like hours
the feelings sours
i try to hide
i dont think ill servive
but then i see you
now what do i do?