Why Mum? Poem by Candy Simpson

I don't know why I bother to try,
even though I know,
you'll never be satisfied
I'm not what you want,
I'm not what you need.
but you're twisting and turning my reality.
I'm lost in the shuffle,
buried with my troubles.
you're killing my emotions,
losing my trust,
you look at me with a sense of disgust.
this is my world,
you are my fear
I think things would be better,
without you near
I'm losing myself
cowarding down to you
You're words they are permanent to me
just like a tattoo.
All these people that think they're so tough.
try, being reminded that you're never good enough.
you're killing me slowly,
I'm almost dead.
I imagine you smile as you drift off to bed.
this isn't right, this isn't fair
it's nothing, I don't expect you to care
I know whose right
I know whose wrong
but you'll figure it out,
once I'm finally gone.